SHE

What happened? . i suddenly woke up . i just blinked and again came the same question . "Nothing just tired" was my reply .She smiled and went past me. That was "she" ,never tired never sad and always happy. Then started the usual classes i just couldnt concentrate coz i was tired and my eyes were searching for something to concentrate on!!!!. It was not on the book or lecturer that my eyes landed,but it was on her. "She" was not the most beautiful woman i ever saw , but there was something that attracted me to her.But she was the most active person in
the class. Days went past suddenly i knew her mother was no more. i was sad but couldnt believe the fact that she knew that her mother wont be there for long.She hid this from all of us she smiled but deep inside her she was crying. The day after the cremation we visited her. She
still smiled seeing us and told everything about her mother.Never was her voice feeble and never did she stumble. When she stopped she paused and then Tears started flowing . I couldnt sleep that day.One week later she started attending classes again.I started talking to her more often , the usual introvert i am trying to be extrovert,tryin to console her.Now more and more i spent time with her the more and more i got attached to her. i started loving her. For what and why did i love her? . i never knew and it happened and i started thinking more of her. But i was soo "bold and courageous " that the fact that i loved her was not known to anyone except me and the four walls of my room. Then the more i saw her the more i wanted to talk to her but i couldnt talk . Then slowly the interaction got limited to "hai" s and "smiles" which frustrated me a lot. Such was the frustration that even if she didnt smile at me for one day or talk to me my mood was gone. That was not her fault but mine. I thought i ll keep it within myself till i m independent with a job. i got a job but still the irony is that i never opened up to her.Numerous calls i made her on the phone,most of them remained unanswered.Then one day she answered me , i felt i was the most happiest man , i told her everything except that i love her.Nothing was working. But then i had to have a career for myself , i went in search of that but inside my mind i gave her a small place and consoling myself that one day i will tell her. Now i m waiting for that day when my call will be answered , when my love will be known to her. What will be her reply? i dont know !!!! whatever it is ill still be happy that she knows that at the end of the day someone is there, far away who has given some space in his heart for her...